Yesterday was a nightmare. I saw it coming yet it still rocked me to my core. When I saw those traitors break the barriers and storm the capitol I cried for my country. We are so broken and nothing is going to put us back together again. The only thing we should be having to worry about are the 4,100 souls we lost yesterday to coronavirus but instead we have to deal with homegrown terrorists trying to subvert a legitimate election. And why? Because they believed the lies of a conman and crook.
I'm finding it hard to write. What the hell am I supposed to say? That the president incited a rebellion? That a fooled woman was shot dead trying to storm the capitol? That they live streamed their intention to kidnap and kill our elected officials? That I have Trump supporters who are so in denial they are trying to say that this isn't what happened and that it was FUCKING ANTIFA?! That Putin is laughing his ass off right now? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY HERE!?
It would be so much easier is I didn't love my country. But I do. I can't sit back happily while I watch it go up in flames but there is nothing else I can do. I believe in peaceful means to solve problems unless a direct threat is made against ones life. Even if I wanted to do otherwise what would I do? Where would I go? It's the job of the police and NG to keep the peace. Not me. So what can I do except cry and archive?
Here are some links to the news stories from yesterday.
That's really all I can muster. I feel empty and sad and defeated even though we won all the elections we had been hoping for. Maybe that is because I am not a Democrat. I only voted that way out of desperation. I don't regret it. It was the right thing to do but I don't really think they can fix this. They are corrupt in another way than the GOP. And even if they have the best of intentions it won't matter. Our people are so fractured that there is no way to reconcile. There are not enough people like me out there who are willing to let bygones be bygones. Something in people hungers for a war and I fear they will make it a reality.
So there it is. The ramblings of a heartbroken American Patriot. Welcome to 2021...